Me, myself and I

This may be long and beware of the randomness.

There's too much of thinking lately. Whether it is day or night, these things just struck my mind whenever, wherever and whatever i was doing then. And then it went on further and deeper into thoughts. I hope I didn't go too far...This time there were many things that i was thinking of - my future, my studies, my health, my relationship, myself, my holidays, what's going on in the next episode of the drama, what's going to happen next year, the recession we are facing now and yadda yadda yadda. I'm simply too free i suppose.

My future and my studies. I once tried to apply a scholarship with 3 years bond from one of the big chemical company but due to the title of the essay, i didn't continue with the application. I totally had no idea what should i write about my future plans back then. Kinda pathetic, i felt. Electrical Engineering seems to make people go "wow" by just listening to the course's name. Though it sounded professional, its still about myself. By now, I'm not really sure if i could be good in this line. I hope i could. Anyhow, I'm still looking forward to what I am to face when i graduate. I even go to the extend of planning to take up Masters elsewhere. We'll see.

My studies wasn't so good this term. Probably there were too much fun, probably something else was bothering me or maybe I didn't understand anything about Electronic Principles at all. All the BJTs, JFETs, MOSFETs, DC load lines and AC amplifier circuits...i thought i handled it well but i was so wrong and I couldn't blame the lecturer for not teaching the whole freaking semester because I'm the one studying. I thought i enjoy drawing AC equivalent circuits. I honestly liked it in Chapter 3 of the module. That was how i scored my Test 2 as well but the exam turned out bad...now what? Lets appeal some says...but i'm reluctant to do so.. So be it, i thought.

Health. Hmm...my headache is getting more aggressive and frequent than usual. The pain can go all the way to the back of my head. It sounds serious. Sometimes i think maybe there's a tumor somewhere up there thats causing the headaches.. Or probably i have migrain or something like that? I'll probably should go for a check up. I initially wanted to go for a whole body check up this holidays, but ...now i think its not the right time. Ouh i was banned from taking ice 2 months ago and i did a pretty good job for the whole month until i came back..i started taking ice again..Hmm either i heed the advice or pay the consequences when i'm older. Its my choice..

Being pressurized. Well, thats the word? Yea, what can I say...my bad??Hmm If you think so, then it is. Sometimes, I just don't know what else can i do...Right, you teach me.

It seems the moon last night was very beautiful. Since some told me hey look at the moon, did you see the moon last night?..I guess it was really a good one. Wasted, i didn't get to see.I was searching for it, but couldn't find the moon..and so i gave up. Good for those who've seen it. I want to watch twilight. Its a human-vampire movie and a romantic love story kinda movie. Its based on a novel and heard it was a bestseller or something like that. Hmm..i want to see how good it is since people said its nice.

Alright, i think i should stop. No one wants to read further.