The commitment

Today is a day to celebrate. My bestie and her soulmate tied the knot :) Yeay! so happy that I just didn't want to miss witnessing and celebrating it together with the love birds, friends and their families. Congrats Mr. & Mrs. Mak! =D May you live happily ever after. Tadaaa...familiar words from fairytales but it is my utmost sincere blessings. Am looking forward to the reception :)

Anyway, what I'd like to share tonight is the registration itself. To my surprise, it took less than 10 minutes. Seriously. What I heard was the few questions and the answers - Yes, No, I do, I do, sign, exchange of ring and you get your papers. Oh she missed the kissing part but right, that's illegal here I think. Oh and that's it! Just that?! Yes, just that. For skeptics, it is just a paper and legally bonded to the government because without it although you consider yourself man and wife, there's so many limitations & restrictions.For a moment, it really seemed unbelievable and looks like a warranty paper if one leaves the other either physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually. 

Nevertheless, it signifies eternal love & commitment because it can only happen once
(at least, in my context).    

Note: Oh by the way, not anytime soon. Don't think too much :)

Me & My Irresponsible dream

 I dream to travel around the world, to leave everyone behind, to see whats on every part of the world and to find the best place to reside. To live in a cottage with lush green sceneries, to live simply with a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallows every night.

How carefree. How naive.

When reality strikes, it is just a dream. An irresponsible dream. 

Such dreams comes in handy when I'm all worked up. To be stuck in my own world for a moment makes me come back easily and move on.

But then again, keep in mind we always have our loved ones around us. No matter how difficult life could be, I'm sure we'll pull through.

When there's a will, there's a way.

Don't give up.

Faith brought us together

So Joon Aun left for more than a week.

Of course, everyone asked me about the ugly airport scene but thank you all for concerning, no worries, I'm doing fine =). In fact, we are doing great because we're always with each other. Well, this is the first souvenir I got from him, thanx babe! Love ya much!

Once written on the sands of Dubai =)

What would girls die for?

Guys. Metaphorically, of course.

Of the many many pleasures in life - beauty, clothes, shoes, bags; Girls will also sacrifice anything for their guy and it always made me wonder why. Although I wonder, I'm just one of them. Well, at least the many girlfriends I know are like that =) Four or three words. The power of love or Love is blind? Or its neither. It is just our nature for being angelic and its okay, no matter what. I decided that it is just girls and emotions. Its automatic. However, it could be very subjective and this is just one side of the coin. And I wonder if guys really do appreciate it (well, if you do, then its awesome!!).

If we open the newspapers these days, there are so many cases of teenage girls running away with their so-called bf. Why so stupid? It is not worth while to just run away from school and follow somebody who they barely even know..Not this kinda sacrifice. I will probably give my sympathy to those who were cast black magic on, but not those who know men/guys through Facebook and get cheated. Hmmm...its like a trend these days. I don't know whats behind - family probs, stress etc. but its just not the way. I hope we can do something about it.

ps: The power of love lies with whoever who cares less.

A chapter in life

Hanging out in MBS and Petaling Street today brought on some nostalgic moments. Although it was just about a year and a half in the school, so many memories were created. Walking in the school, I can just visualize the days when were studying there. Hmmm...Miss all of you people!! It is a hub where my network of friends expanded so much and also the place where I met the love of my life =). We’ve grown, so much, and like us, the school is still undergoing some tremendous change. They tore down YC, took up space of the field and those huge, old shady trees were no longer there, to build a multi-purpose hall.

One of the most memorable parts of the school among the boys will be the stories about their high school days – where they bully their teachers, making fun of each other and all sorts of silly acts. It has always been a topic and no matter how many times it’s been told, until today, everyone burst into laughter.

I spent some time browsing through pictures, folders after folders and I just giggled to myself. The pictures and us at present, are so different. hahahaha.

Cameron 2005

Graduation Day 2006

Clancy photoshoot 2006

Cameron 2006

Redang 2007

Cheras Hike 2008

Broga Hike 2009

CS birthday 2009

SPY birthday 2009

Fraser outing 2010

Ledang 2010

Best photoshoot effect, goes to CS =P

...and because we look good too =)

Billion-haire now

I guess we've all had our billionaire dreams once in awhile till today. Questions like "What am I gonna do if I have a billion dollars? How am I to spend it, so on and so forth.." would appear in our minds.. 'I wanna be a billionaire, so freaking bad...buy all of the things I never had...' sounds so familiar yea..

I've heard of so many dreams - from ships to private jets to living in the sky and planting huge expensive trees, all the way till owning the moon. The sky's the limit.hehe. We've always wondered, well at least, I've always wondered how these wealthy people spend their money. I really don't know. Maybe, maybe, one day when I'm there, I'll know. ;)

As for me, besides having a comfortable life, I would love to help the poor and the orphans/old folks. Not by donations but providing these poor kids with good education. On top of that, to provide better shelter for families who are still living in shacks..and their children will be able to grow up in a proper environment. For the orphans/old folks, there's so much we could do including showering them with love and care. With billions and billions of dollars, I'm sure they can have proper meals (Not hinting that the homes are abusing the orphans/old folks, its just part of my dreams). =)

*Spread the love*

Contented

If airplanes could be shooting stars, I'll wish for the clock to stop ticking just for one day and let me make full use of every second. See, the good times is just momentary, and before I could get hold of the night, it approaches to an end. Whatever it is, its a memory, a quality one and I'll appreciate it.

xoxo

Ps: Lets just shop the next time! =)

Something oh so sweet

Serena, this post is dedicated to you...

I'm so glad to know that you've arrived in Finland safely and your secret plan was such a success. The sweetest thing is both you and Lauri could finally meet up again since May last year. All that you guys had went through. Wish ya all the best, sista! We'll miss you back here and.. see ya in a year!

Ps: Don't be naughty! =P

Home

I cannot stay put in this place for more than 3 weeks, I'll miss home terribly and thats what I'm feeling the whole week. I know why Cyn wants to go home some much. I feel you today. No worries, you'll be home soon for good.

**How I wish the April fool prank I played wasn't a prank and I really could drop by there.

Drifted away

The awful drink

Today is FT day and the last time I got to enjoy this holiday was 3 years back. I remembered very well that I spent half a day in Telecom museum browsing through whatever they have in the archive. Pretty interesting. If you have the time, probably just drop by yeah. Looking at the development of our communication system from time to time could interest you a little.

So, January was a roller coaster ride for me.

It seems that the new year kicked start unexpectedly terrible but I'm glad at the same time. I know, I know its very contradicting and hey guess what, I have not decided on my resolutions yet. Maybe I still want to continue enjoying the bits and pieces of 2009. How sad.

I admit I got so drifted away during the January weekends and I also stirred up some anger and discomfort in my loved ones...Guess they were so worried. The guilt has been with me though and all the while I've been trying a little too hard to keep my mind from being too preoccupied, but of course, to no avail.

Well, I'm glad January's gone and things have eased a little, I think.

I'll remember the days because I wouldn't want to go through it again and there's no one to blame.

Apologies to the people I love and who loves me.

~Try looking at things from a new perspective~

I miss...

Guess what...over the weeks

I miss having Chow Kit Road Pan Mee...

I miss having roadside Dim Sum at night...

I miss Klang/Pudu Bak Kut Teh

I miss having Section 17 Banana Leaf Rice...

I miss McD

I miss having Zinger...

ps: U.

Financial woes

Just yesterday, I took some time off for myself to reflect what I've been doing lately. To be honest, it wasn't the usual me. After 2 Saturdays of partying, yea no doubt it was fun, but I couldn't get away from my troubles so easily. Unfortunately, I still have to face the reality. Yesterday was D day. I sat on the concrete outside my room, plugged in my MP3 player and just relax. Feel the breeze and stare at the sky. For that period of time, I was totally in my own world. Believe it or not, I sat there watching the clear sky turned into orangy horizon till it became all dark.

Images from past went through my mind, one by one. It appeared like mini TV screens and all those were quite recent ones, probably dated back till december 2009. I paused at one of the image - two weeks ago at my hairdresser's. Reflected, and the topic was about financial woes in a relationship.

She shared her experience with us which I assume its about 20 years back. She said all was good with her husband, lovey dovey and all sorts until she gave birth to her first child. Problem begins, they argued everyday. The cause of it? Money - milk powder, diapers and the like.

Its common, but at the same time, it struck me.

Its something which shouldn't happen. You didn't sign the papers to argue over financial status. You didn't sign the papers to argue everyday over small matters. Instead, it should be worked out properly by the couple way before the kid is born.

Financial woes, if not properly managed, is definitely a problem between couples, whether its new or established. As a result of the current financial crisis, couples are finding themselves between a rock and a hard place in countless instances. Many are also finding themselves with the added stress of unhappy relationship. Their financial woes push them toward separation, however, their financial difficulties prevent them, in their mind from calling it quits.

This is what American couples are facing - relationships fall out due to the increasing financial difficulties. (as of 2008)

Here are some tips which can help stop fighting over finance and enjoy a more rewarding and stress-free relationship (provided by associated content):-

• Understand that money is not the only issue. Financial fracases usually involve more complex and deeper issues than money. Security, control, and power are all underlying themes when it comes to fights over finances. When money is tight, security is a very real issue, and can lead to irritations and complaints. Control and power are closely related. Ideas of who should make the decisions, or one partner constantly making purchases without consulting with the other lead to struggles over control and turn money into the currency of familial power.

• Talk about financial issues. Just as any other aspect of a relationship requires communication, money matters need talking about. It is important to air your fears and hopes, as well as articulate your strengths and weaknesses with money. You should also listen to your partner and try to understand where he or she is coming from. Talk about the underlying issues that increase your financial struggles, and try to figure out, together, how to overcome these struggles. These communications should be calm in nature, and you should do as much listening as talking.

• Create some rules. Rules establish order and often provide comfort, whether we like to admit it or not. When you set rules for spending, however, you should understand that each party will have to give in some, and that compromise is necessary.

• Set common goals. Just having rules is not enough. You can increase your financial harmony by working toward common money dreams. Working together to reach goals can help you to feel more connected, and more like partners. The goals should be short term, medium term, and long term. Short-term goals like saving a little each month for a movie night or dining out give immediate rewards and are encouraging. Medium-range goals like saving up for family vacation, a new car, or a home down payment keep you focused on a reward and brings you together with mutual sacrifice. Long-term goals include things like retirement savings and making plans for when the kids are out of the house. This provides something for you to look forward to as a couple as long as you are together. **Applies to established relationship.

Couples, on the whole, shouldn't feel tied to their relationship because of their financial circumstances. Their emotional wellbeing doesn't have to plummet in line with the stock market. Well, I hope this little tip here helps whoever who's going through these problems. Good luck!

ps: I wonder what happens to leading a simple life...Wonder if its erased from your dictionary ;)

A cowardly act

I received a text from a friend yesterday and it goes something like this:-

"Suan...I'm kinda messed up currently, almost hook up with a girl.. but when she's ready, I feel like I'm not good enough for her. Am I very bad?"

Reading it blew my top and I chided him immediately. Due to current emotional status, its a real bad time to tell me things like this - I'll just spank the person if I could. First of all, yes, its very bad and cruel.

Okay, so this is just another typical scenario thats happening everywhere. Well, it all started off with a guy liking a girl but afraid that she doesn't fancy him the same way. To speed up a little, courtship begins and after awhile the girl fell right through it. While she's waiting for the guy to pop the question, the guy suddenly backs off. SOME guys just enjoy doing this, while SOME probably are afraid of committing in a relationship. Yes, I used the word SOME simply because I know not all guys are the same, and there's no need for me to humiliate the male population.

Sheer nonsense!!

It is not up to you to say/judge whether you are good enough for her or deserve her instead it is a decision by both souls. Maybe you're trying to be macho, wants to make the best decision but mind you, its just a cowardly act. Plus, you'll leave her in misery. Now, tell me how gentleman would it be to create such knotty situation?

**As a matter of fact, I know there are girls who leave guys in misery just like the above situation, but just so you know I don't want to mention it in there because it'll spoil part of my purpose..to promote NeYo's album here as well. hehe.

Listen to

Year of the gentleman

Be a gentleman and do respect women :)

Ps: This post is written in general and not to insult anyone.

I'm not an item.

I realized I'm just a thing to some people.

I'm not an icon, which you can use for the econs project;

I'm not here for you to create some stories and laugh about;

I'm not here for you to spread rumours;

and

I'm not a thing you can come to and go whenever you favour.

I don't voice out, doesn't mean I don't mind, doesn't mean I'm not hurt.

Respect me, guys.

Its a lovestory, baby just say...yes..

Exactly a month from my previous post und es ist schon schlimm. Haven't been doing a good job after all. I haven't get over it enough and the thoughts still haunts from time to time. Although I feel terrible upon hearing anything about it at all, at least I know and I won't feel left out. I'm still trying.

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Great news..!! Our friend Jian Xin got engaged recently and will be getting married next year I think.. Well, its good to hear and everyone's happy for him. Looking at the pictures of the proposal, I figured it must have been a really good and a romantic one. haha.. Seems like he's got a lot of ideas there. Congratulations!! =) *cheeRs*

Just another random post.

Firstly, .. HAPPY BIRTHDAY S.H.Y!!!!

Taken @ 2007 birthday celebration

I know we can't celebrate together this year so I'll just wish all October babies a Happy Birthday.. There's just so many people - Peay, ZiLing, Shu Yi, Ernest, Sher How, Aunty Miler, Mr. Ngooi, Shur Hueih, Joo Ling and some others..

From left: Ernest, Aun

There's just so many things in a week that I want to tell, which I can't finish telling and..So, here goes...

It's just going to be another Hectic October : Like usual, more tests and tests on Sundays, datelines to meet and so forth.. Oh its going to be so crazy. Well, it is also a funny thing, this is the time where you will see E&E people walking around like Zombies, running here and there from lab to lab, completing their circuits and cursing the lab equipments for not working properly. Oh I heard there's a Uni open house on the 19th. People, just drop by at HEP to get your coupons, if you're interested. (The important dates: 4, 6, 11, 16, 19 and another one pending)

Well, I think everyone must know about the Earthquake that happened in Sumatera yesterday. Its scary and quite serious since we could feel the effect here too, but all, I missed the one experience. I hear them say, everything in the room were shaking, people wrapped in towels heading downstairs and so forth...I'm just wondering, if you were to run, what is the most important thing you'll bring along?

Another heart-wrenching story - Just got to know, a friend's diagnosed with heart attack recently. The heart's dying, a-b-normal heartbeat and so forth.. I guess all I can say is its destined since he is just my age, no smoking, no drinking and an athletic person. But stay strong, we'll pray hard for you too. Hope to see you during the finals. =)

Its Mid-Autumn festival this Saturday. Initially thought of going home and celebrate, but I'm having test on Sunday morning. Anyhow, we'll be having a simple celebration tonight - just a get together. Remember those times when Grandpa was around he would buy lanterns and he ring us up and ask us to choose the tanglungs ourselves, on first come first served basis. Its a yearly affair, and when he's gone, so does that. We just miss you so much.

Diwali is on the 17th October..Like usual, its a family thing and we'll all be in PD..Not sure if I can join this time, I have test on the 19th and projects to finish up. Hopefully, everything can be done in this coming 2 weeks.I don't want to miss the fun. *fingers crossed*

Oh guess what, I did something good..hehe. I was peacemaker for 2 lovebirds last week,I was told. Its totally accidental. Anyway, glad you people are talking again. =)

Finally, myself. I realized something this week(well, its last week actually), that I'll never learn to adapt well here. Not that I did not try, it just don't work. I find myself hopeless in fact, with so many support from loved ones, I still can't do it. Sorry to let you all down. Don't say its like that, or its normal, I know it myself, its not meant to be like that. Every time after a school break, I'll have a hard time - it'll last at least a week. Few days before the break ends, I'll start worrying, I don't sleep well, and the latest being - waking up early in the morning feeling scared/heavy/ or whatever it is. It just strikes my mind naturally. I guess I'm developing a fear. Its a psychology game and probably a test of perseverance. However tough it is, I'll finish this up, I'll pull through and hopefully I'll come out as a tougher person.

Its just part and parcel of our Life.

*CheeRs*

Confusion

Imagine myself standing in the middle of a sea of people...

People couldn't see me..

You don't see me, you couldn't find me,

While I'm struggling to get out of the crowd.

The crowd's too huge and they just don't move..

They just don't move.

I feel so lost, so confused..

boy, its truly depressing...

All I can do is just wait,

and wait for time to pass...

Wait for them to move,

or either wait for someone to get me.

09.09.09

Class is supposed to be 8am but normally my lecturer will text and change the time to 820am, so thats the reason I'm blogging now...

I don't know if this is a really special day because we're gonna see this again next year on 10.10.10 and the following 11.11.11 and the last being 12.12.12 i think...Anyway, somebody greeted me happy 09.09.09 and it didn't occur to me that its such a special until this morning when I woke up.

It is indeed a special day.

Many couples are tying the knot today...Read the papers about 2 months back and it says many couples will register on this day despite the hungry ghost month for the chinese. Oh and even the young lady who did facial for me told me - she's getting married today..Congrats!

Maybe they're signing the papers at 9.09am?who knows..and I'll be having Statistics class that time.

Its just so wonderful. Oh Share this day with your loved ones.

*CheeRs*

Gloomy August

Sensed something ain't right this whole month and looks like its just the beginning of this greyish August...I've been thinking about this the whole month too and it seems to be a repetition of Last August.

Fret not, as I could stand by, if only you would enlighten me.

If I could have a smile like yours

I always like to clear things up fast, especially misunderstandings.

If it was my fault, I would apologize. I couldn't wait any longer, I'll keep thinking of it, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't continue doing anything, my mood changes there and then and I definitely feel very guilty. I couldn't stand this kind of situation. That's me.

Despite all of the above, I still have a question I've been longing to ask. Unfortunately, I couldn't bring out my courage to hear the answer - afraid it might not be what I want to hear. I just didn't have the confidence. But on the other hand, I'm curious. I want to know what lies beneath. Sadly, I'm not courageous enough. Instead, I'll just be patient. The answer should be somewhere in front.

Wouldn't it be good if I have a crystal ball in hand and I could see what's coming. Ahh, that would be so ideal. I'll lead an Alice in the wonderland life *dreaming*. I need not worry, nor will I always have to be few steps ahead. If it came to your senses and could be a lil' sensitive, I could lay back and relax because I don't want to be ahead of you all the time.