The commitment

Today is a day to celebrate. My bestie and her soulmate tied the knot :) Yeay! so happy that I just didn't want to miss witnessing and celebrating it together with the love birds, friends and their families. Congrats Mr. & Mrs. Mak! =D May you live happily ever after. Tadaaa...familiar words from fairytales but it is my utmost sincere blessings. Am looking forward to the reception :)

Anyway, what I'd like to share tonight is the registration itself. To my surprise, it took less than 10 minutes. Seriously. What I heard was the few questions and the answers - Yes, No, I do, I do, sign, exchange of ring and you get your papers. Oh she missed the kissing part but right, that's illegal here I think. Oh and that's it! Just that?! Yes, just that. For skeptics, it is just a paper and legally bonded to the government because without it although you consider yourself man and wife, there's so many limitations & restrictions.For a moment, it really seemed unbelievable and looks like a warranty paper if one leaves the other either physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually. 

Nevertheless, it signifies eternal love & commitment because it can only happen once
(at least, in my context).    

Note: Oh by the way, not anytime soon. Don't think too much :)

Me & My Irresponsible dream

 I dream to travel around the world, to leave everyone behind, to see whats on every part of the world and to find the best place to reside. To live in a cottage with lush green sceneries, to live simply with a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallows every night.

How carefree. How naive.

When reality strikes, it is just a dream. An irresponsible dream. 

Such dreams comes in handy when I'm all worked up. To be stuck in my own world for a moment makes me come back easily and move on.

But then again, keep in mind we always have our loved ones around us. No matter how difficult life could be, I'm sure we'll pull through.

When there's a will, there's a way.

Don't give up.

To dream is to hope

Yes, I've finally taken my step to revive my blog. So to expect more posts coming up slowly.

Stumble upon this note, and I think it is just right for every one of us. Take time off tonight to dream. It's always good to dream. Gives me inspiration & strength to move forward.

I'm grateful for what I have today, but I'm not contented just yet. 
Happy Thanksgiving! =D 

What would girls die for?

Guys. Metaphorically, of course.

Of the many many pleasures in life - beauty, clothes, shoes, bags; Girls will also sacrifice anything for their guy and it always made me wonder why. Although I wonder, I'm just one of them. Well, at least the many girlfriends I know are like that =) Four or three words. The power of love or Love is blind? Or its neither. It is just our nature for being angelic and its okay, no matter what. I decided that it is just girls and emotions. Its automatic. However, it could be very subjective and this is just one side of the coin. And I wonder if guys really do appreciate it (well, if you do, then its awesome!!).

If we open the newspapers these days, there are so many cases of teenage girls running away with their so-called bf. Why so stupid? It is not worth while to just run away from school and follow somebody who they barely even know..Not this kinda sacrifice. I will probably give my sympathy to those who were cast black magic on, but not those who know men/guys through Facebook and get cheated. Hmmm...its like a trend these days. I don't know whats behind - family probs, stress etc. but its just not the way. I hope we can do something about it.

ps: The power of love lies with whoever who cares less.

Blame it on the work stress

When it comes to planning, I think one of the best professionals will be an actuary. They give you the best premium rates, risks and bla bla bla.. But when it comes to life planning, probably a lil' too dreamy. hahaha.. Before this, Zi came up with a 5 year plan for Shu Yi - getting a girlfriend to marriage. Today, unexpectedly, she gave me a 2 year plan instead =.=" haha Zi's hinting something, girls! hahaha Sorry Zi! =P Just joking.

We were talking about my internship choices and she was asking me questions after questions before resorting to this (below).

天真的朋友 ;)

Yikes, I wonder what did EY do to my friend, that she's dreaming on broad day light. Blame it on the work stress.. hehe. Oie kerja la, chatting! =) I liked your idea though, wait till I become the boss! =P

My breakie and lunch today cost me rm4.80 I think, just for the McD coffee and I had a whole lot of filling stuff to eat. But the coffee made me so dizzy. yikes. Well, Joo knew I wouldn't even wake up at 8am just to have breakfast, especially on a Wednesday morning. The day that I embrace the opportunity to have my beauty sleep. So, she packed for me instead. yeay!! Thanx Joo!

stuck with TOPSIS & McD breakie

Because I've been stuffing myself with food this week [blame it on the work stress..hehe], I'll have a 3-5 days detox plan after my test on Friday. I definitely need that!

ps: There's always a solution to everything. With positive thoughts, the day will be better. =)

A new hobby

The first thing in mind was to wake up in comfortable arms on such a beautiful Saturday morning. I wish he was just right beside me =) I have been procrastinating darn a lot and my homework has been piling up bit by bit. I know I have to start somehow, but thinking of the documents that I have to compile, it is a tedious job.

Anyway, I been thinking of a new hobby lately, but have yet to find a suitable one. If you have any suggestions, drop me one =)

Valentines Day

Happy Valentines Day!!...May all enjoy this auspicious day =)

Everyday's a V-day, some say. To some, it sounds unromantic. To others, it may be acceptable. To florists and restaurateurs it is absolutely a bad thing. hahaha.

Its been quite some time since I've scribbled here. So here's a lil' something.

It is 2011 now, but I've not post my 2010 wrap-up. I'll try, when my mood comes. I kept reminiscing December since the start of the year and hence the title of my song. Oh Darn! Am I moving backwards? But December was one of my best months last year. If I could, I would have stayed in the memory.

Coming back to reality. Lets see whats coming.

2 months to completion of FYP. Relief.

3 months to leaving Uni. Yeay!

3 1/2 months to going through a new test : The distance. Hmm..

At this point, I find life to be weird. haha.. However colorful it was back then, I don't know whats lying ahead of me. It seems blank even if I have a plan. Ahh, my wishful thinking.

I just wish that everything goes smoothly this year.

Long awaited 2011.

I welcomed the new year with consecutive days of tears; tears of joy, tears of sorrow, I don't know and I already have a new nickname, "Angree". Sounds horrible but funny.

Phew...2011, the long awaited year. =)

It is finally here but it doesn't seem like what its supposed to be anymore. I'm beginning to live in contradiction or denial, whatever it is...On one hand, I'm excited because I'm graduating this year, while on the other hand, finishing school means I have to live with his absence for sometime. Then, it confuses my mind. haha. It is so weird. Thinking of it weakens me so I think I have to start injecting positive thoughts in me everyday. Aye, my mind is always ahead of myself and it annoys me at times.

I only have A new year resolution this year but I'll cancel it because it is useless for me and I figured that it isn't a must to have new year resolutions, so long as I stick to achieving my goals. I do have many wishes though. =)

2011 will be the beginning of a new chapter in life. How I'll miss uni life, I'm not very sure about it. What God has in store for me, I'll find out soon. I hope His riddles aren't too tough. What I'm sure of is that I'll embark on a new journey. I'll gear up for new challenges ahead. =)

Wishing for a smooth sailing 2011!

*CheeRs*

ps: I hope you will gear up too!

Crisp breeze

Feeling the cold wind outside chills my spine and dampens my body but it never fail to activate my mind. And today, I'd like to share a lot of things. It could be a very random, long post. So, please, be patient with me.

I'm back on my own legs - living without a car at the moment. Its good that I can actually compensate all my missed work outs but it is a terrible thing that my freedom is restricted. No more lone-ranger outing at McDs whenever I want to =( Why isn't there a Starbucks in Uni? or a McD kiosk? or Subway Sandwiches? or....something that can kill my boredom and distract myself from being in my own world.

The most annoying. People begin to get addicted with Fb while I'm beginning to dislike it. I think its because of the recent events that I find it annoying. I think the objectives of Fb has been achieved beyond that it is starting to give all the negative effects. If guys like browsing pictures of pretty/sexy ladies and girls like posting pictures to attract attention, well, maybe it is still acceptable. But cheating behind your other half's back by sending sweet mails/messages through fb to other people? C'mon...Ever thought of how your other half will feel if he/she reads it?..Think about it. *I feel for you to those who been through that. Stay strong!*

Updates. Another 3 weeks to a 3 week study break! But before all the fun, I'll first have to go through many restless nights. I must say that juggling between time, studies & activities as well as my own life hasn't been easy, but the one thing I'm amazed is that I always go through it well. I hope I could make it too this time. I should be a juggler!hehe. With all the projects, assignments, presentations - all due soon, I'm most worried with my FYP 1 presentation next week. Having Dr. Kok as my panel is so alarming. Famous for asking lots of questions, I'm afraid I'll be standing there dumbfounded! while having Dr. Goh as my supervisor, I'd say, thumbs up! haha. By the way, they're both best friends. ;)

Dean list. finally..The one thing that I'm waiting for to achieve again. I'm back on the list last semester. Am contented =) and I'm so lucky to get a hamper today. ^^ Thanx to mum, dad and joon aun and of course, myself for the never-ending support. Pictures up soon.

I've got more to say, unfortunately, I've got to go now. Tedious maze set up tonight! I'll write again soon!

My best friend just wouldn't leave me alone

Glad that I'm not the only abnormal one, but ain't proud of myself too. I found out that some people face the same problem too.

One of my best friend is actually my sleeping problem. Usually it'll visit me a week before holiday ends. Thats the time when I hardly sleep at night, I begin to get nervous and..even if I'm asleep, subconsciously I'm awake at times. Oh when I'm back in uni, I won't be able to sleep well too.. It'll prolong for a few days to a week until I had enough of it.

3 1/2 years, nothing's changed except this time, instead of a week, I didn't sleep well 2 nights before I had to come back.. Should I say its an improvement? haha.. but i find it a little too late, because, its my second last term already.

Maybe, its all in the mind. hahaha

Contented

If airplanes could be shooting stars, I'll wish for the clock to stop ticking just for one day and let me make full use of every second. See, the good times is just momentary, and before I could get hold of the night, it approaches to an end. Whatever it is, its a memory, a quality one and I'll appreciate it.

xoxo

Ps: Lets just shop the next time! =)

Cho0Ose 1!!

I have 5 days to decide...either

Communication

OR

Robotics & Automation

I'm not only considering about my interest but also the market demands, practicality, some pros & cons and a lil' gender discriminations in certain fields [yeah, it does happen in the engineering world, thats the truth]. Hmm, maybe I don't need to think much about it, because in the end of the day both fields will end up in the production/designing sector. Somehow or rather I'm torn between 2..hmm

If you have some opinions, no hesitations please, do enlighten me =)

Drifted away

The awful drink

Today is FT day and the last time I got to enjoy this holiday was 3 years back. I remembered very well that I spent half a day in Telecom museum browsing through whatever they have in the archive. Pretty interesting. If you have the time, probably just drop by yeah. Looking at the development of our communication system from time to time could interest you a little.

So, January was a roller coaster ride for me.

It seems that the new year kicked start unexpectedly terrible but I'm glad at the same time. I know, I know its very contradicting and hey guess what, I have not decided on my resolutions yet. Maybe I still want to continue enjoying the bits and pieces of 2009. How sad.

I admit I got so drifted away during the January weekends and I also stirred up some anger and discomfort in my loved ones...Guess they were so worried. The guilt has been with me though and all the while I've been trying a little too hard to keep my mind from being too preoccupied, but of course, to no avail.

Well, I'm glad January's gone and things have eased a little, I think.

I'll remember the days because I wouldn't want to go through it again and there's no one to blame.

Apologies to the people I love and who loves me.

~Try looking at things from a new perspective~

Mourn for the Ruler

Am I being conservative, open-minded, modernized, weird or ms. nice citizen[just kidding]?

I think mourning for the ruler isn't a big deal, to me its a form of respect. Well, I don't go all out and put on the black band, but I wear dark-coloured clothes and like Darurat has it in yesteryears, I don't walk out of the university grounds during mourning hours. Just in case. :)

Mourning for the Sultan of Johor who has just passed away last week has been an issue. In fact, its the hottest issue in the university this week. On Monday morning, the university came out with a memo urging all staff and students to mourn for the ruler of the state. On Tuesday morning, they enforced the rule and the guards were checking thoroughly - car after car that passed through the gate. They gave warnings to those who did not abide by the rule.

Some people argued with the guards because according to the newspapers, it is NOT compulsory to mourn and there will not be any fines or summons. Obviously, its no use complaining to the guards because they just carry out their duties upon receiving orders.

I don't get the flow. Seriously, I don't. I don't get why is it a fuss among the Chinese community. Its just a black band, it has got nothing to do with religion, you're not really mourning, its just a form of respect to the dead and I guess there's no pantang larangs. Or am I missing something here?

Although we're not Johorians, we should probably just follow the rule because we've been living here for 3 years, though not wholly but since we're here, might as well abide by the rules[which I usually don't] to avoid getting into trouble yourself. Anyway, there's only 3 more days to go.. Why do you want to make a fuss with the dead person?

Another alternative, don't leave/enter the university grounds from 7am to 7pm. You'll be safer that way. hahaha..Or to save your butts, just wear it when you pass through the gate and take it off after that.

The best part is, all these complains are coming from Johorians themselves and people who comes from states which have Sultan. ;)

Financial woes

Just yesterday, I took some time off for myself to reflect what I've been doing lately. To be honest, it wasn't the usual me. After 2 Saturdays of partying, yea no doubt it was fun, but I couldn't get away from my troubles so easily. Unfortunately, I still have to face the reality. Yesterday was D day. I sat on the concrete outside my room, plugged in my MP3 player and just relax. Feel the breeze and stare at the sky. For that period of time, I was totally in my own world. Believe it or not, I sat there watching the clear sky turned into orangy horizon till it became all dark.

Images from past went through my mind, one by one. It appeared like mini TV screens and all those were quite recent ones, probably dated back till december 2009. I paused at one of the image - two weeks ago at my hairdresser's. Reflected, and the topic was about financial woes in a relationship.

She shared her experience with us which I assume its about 20 years back. She said all was good with her husband, lovey dovey and all sorts until she gave birth to her first child. Problem begins, they argued everyday. The cause of it? Money - milk powder, diapers and the like.

Its common, but at the same time, it struck me.

Its something which shouldn't happen. You didn't sign the papers to argue over financial status. You didn't sign the papers to argue everyday over small matters. Instead, it should be worked out properly by the couple way before the kid is born.

Financial woes, if not properly managed, is definitely a problem between couples, whether its new or established. As a result of the current financial crisis, couples are finding themselves between a rock and a hard place in countless instances. Many are also finding themselves with the added stress of unhappy relationship. Their financial woes push them toward separation, however, their financial difficulties prevent them, in their mind from calling it quits.

This is what American couples are facing - relationships fall out due to the increasing financial difficulties. (as of 2008)

Here are some tips which can help stop fighting over finance and enjoy a more rewarding and stress-free relationship (provided by associated content):-

• Understand that money is not the only issue. Financial fracases usually involve more complex and deeper issues than money. Security, control, and power are all underlying themes when it comes to fights over finances. When money is tight, security is a very real issue, and can lead to irritations and complaints. Control and power are closely related. Ideas of who should make the decisions, or one partner constantly making purchases without consulting with the other lead to struggles over control and turn money into the currency of familial power.

• Talk about financial issues. Just as any other aspect of a relationship requires communication, money matters need talking about. It is important to air your fears and hopes, as well as articulate your strengths and weaknesses with money. You should also listen to your partner and try to understand where he or she is coming from. Talk about the underlying issues that increase your financial struggles, and try to figure out, together, how to overcome these struggles. These communications should be calm in nature, and you should do as much listening as talking.

• Create some rules. Rules establish order and often provide comfort, whether we like to admit it or not. When you set rules for spending, however, you should understand that each party will have to give in some, and that compromise is necessary.

• Set common goals. Just having rules is not enough. You can increase your financial harmony by working toward common money dreams. Working together to reach goals can help you to feel more connected, and more like partners. The goals should be short term, medium term, and long term. Short-term goals like saving a little each month for a movie night or dining out give immediate rewards and are encouraging. Medium-range goals like saving up for family vacation, a new car, or a home down payment keep you focused on a reward and brings you together with mutual sacrifice. Long-term goals include things like retirement savings and making plans for when the kids are out of the house. This provides something for you to look forward to as a couple as long as you are together. **Applies to established relationship.

Couples, on the whole, shouldn't feel tied to their relationship because of their financial circumstances. Their emotional wellbeing doesn't have to plummet in line with the stock market. Well, I hope this little tip here helps whoever who's going through these problems. Good luck!

ps: I wonder what happens to leading a simple life...Wonder if its erased from your dictionary ;)

A cowardly act

I received a text from a friend yesterday and it goes something like this:-

"Suan...I'm kinda messed up currently, almost hook up with a girl.. but when she's ready, I feel like I'm not good enough for her. Am I very bad?"

Reading it blew my top and I chided him immediately. Due to current emotional status, its a real bad time to tell me things like this - I'll just spank the person if I could. First of all, yes, its very bad and cruel.

Okay, so this is just another typical scenario thats happening everywhere. Well, it all started off with a guy liking a girl but afraid that she doesn't fancy him the same way. To speed up a little, courtship begins and after awhile the girl fell right through it. While she's waiting for the guy to pop the question, the guy suddenly backs off. SOME guys just enjoy doing this, while SOME probably are afraid of committing in a relationship. Yes, I used the word SOME simply because I know not all guys are the same, and there's no need for me to humiliate the male population.

Sheer nonsense!!

It is not up to you to say/judge whether you are good enough for her or deserve her instead it is a decision by both souls. Maybe you're trying to be macho, wants to make the best decision but mind you, its just a cowardly act. Plus, you'll leave her in misery. Now, tell me how gentleman would it be to create such knotty situation?

**As a matter of fact, I know there are girls who leave guys in misery just like the above situation, but just so you know I don't want to mention it in there because it'll spoil part of my purpose..to promote NeYo's album here as well. hehe.

Listen to

Year of the gentleman

Be a gentleman and do respect women :)

Ps: This post is written in general and not to insult anyone.

Its a lovestory, baby just say...yes..

Exactly a month from my previous post und es ist schon schlimm. Haven't been doing a good job after all. I haven't get over it enough and the thoughts still haunts from time to time. Although I feel terrible upon hearing anything about it at all, at least I know and I won't feel left out. I'm still trying.

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Great news..!! Our friend Jian Xin got engaged recently and will be getting married next year I think.. Well, its good to hear and everyone's happy for him. Looking at the pictures of the proposal, I figured it must have been a really good and a romantic one. haha.. Seems like he's got a lot of ideas there. Congratulations!! =) *cheeRs*

I want to get over it.

Woke up feeling grey today, because something struck my mind the moment I open my eyes. Its always been like that these days, off and on..Its beyond my control, really. I wish I could wake up thinking about you every morning, instead its

Something I barely wanna think of; Something I wish I don't have to think of; Something I don't want to worry about; Something I am supposed to be confident of, but it keeps haunting me most of my mornings =(

Its gonna be a month now and I've been trying my best to get over it;

I thought I was okay, but later to realize that:::::>>

I need time to adjust, accept and be comfortable bout it, but I can't be sure how long it takes. useless me.

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Finished 2 papers this week, and it went uhh, badly. My bad, I haven't been concentrating well and I'll have to bear the consequences. Sigh. Will try my best for the next 3.

Wandering Around

For a split second today, I thought I was living in a low-cost flat. While I was doing my own things, suddenly I heard some girls screaming away two blocks away and there were dogs barking. It felt like a mother screaming at her child " Stupid boy! Why did you spill water on the carpet??!!"..that kinda thing.

Then, suddenly I realized I'm living in a hostel...haha. My mind must have been wandering around and imaginations gone a lil' too far.

Oh, on another account, I thought of getting Saree this year to celebrate Diwali. Saree these days are so beautiful, I just want to have it.. On second thought, I have a few pairs and types of Baju Kurung, I want to get a Saree, and the embarrassing part is - I don't have a Cheong Sam. LoL.

Just another random post.

Firstly, .. HAPPY BIRTHDAY S.H.Y!!!!

Taken @ 2007 birthday celebration

I know we can't celebrate together this year so I'll just wish all October babies a Happy Birthday.. There's just so many people - Peay, ZiLing, Shu Yi, Ernest, Sher How, Aunty Miler, Mr. Ngooi, Shur Hueih, Joo Ling and some others..

From left: Ernest, Aun

There's just so many things in a week that I want to tell, which I can't finish telling and..So, here goes...

It's just going to be another Hectic October : Like usual, more tests and tests on Sundays, datelines to meet and so forth.. Oh its going to be so crazy. Well, it is also a funny thing, this is the time where you will see E&E people walking around like Zombies, running here and there from lab to lab, completing their circuits and cursing the lab equipments for not working properly. Oh I heard there's a Uni open house on the 19th. People, just drop by at HEP to get your coupons, if you're interested. (The important dates: 4, 6, 11, 16, 19 and another one pending)

Well, I think everyone must know about the Earthquake that happened in Sumatera yesterday. Its scary and quite serious since we could feel the effect here too, but all, I missed the one experience. I hear them say, everything in the room were shaking, people wrapped in towels heading downstairs and so forth...I'm just wondering, if you were to run, what is the most important thing you'll bring along?

Another heart-wrenching story - Just got to know, a friend's diagnosed with heart attack recently. The heart's dying, a-b-normal heartbeat and so forth.. I guess all I can say is its destined since he is just my age, no smoking, no drinking and an athletic person. But stay strong, we'll pray hard for you too. Hope to see you during the finals. =)

Its Mid-Autumn festival this Saturday. Initially thought of going home and celebrate, but I'm having test on Sunday morning. Anyhow, we'll be having a simple celebration tonight - just a get together. Remember those times when Grandpa was around he would buy lanterns and he ring us up and ask us to choose the tanglungs ourselves, on first come first served basis. Its a yearly affair, and when he's gone, so does that. We just miss you so much.

Diwali is on the 17th October..Like usual, its a family thing and we'll all be in PD..Not sure if I can join this time, I have test on the 19th and projects to finish up. Hopefully, everything can be done in this coming 2 weeks.I don't want to miss the fun. *fingers crossed*

Oh guess what, I did something good..hehe. I was peacemaker for 2 lovebirds last week,I was told. Its totally accidental. Anyway, glad you people are talking again. =)

Finally, myself. I realized something this week(well, its last week actually), that I'll never learn to adapt well here. Not that I did not try, it just don't work. I find myself hopeless in fact, with so many support from loved ones, I still can't do it. Sorry to let you all down. Don't say its like that, or its normal, I know it myself, its not meant to be like that. Every time after a school break, I'll have a hard time - it'll last at least a week. Few days before the break ends, I'll start worrying, I don't sleep well, and the latest being - waking up early in the morning feeling scared/heavy/ or whatever it is. It just strikes my mind naturally. I guess I'm developing a fear. Its a psychology game and probably a test of perseverance. However tough it is, I'll finish this up, I'll pull through and hopefully I'll come out as a tougher person.

Its just part and parcel of our Life.

*CheeRs*